Decisions

Funny how things work out, isn't it LL.

You grabbing a week or so in Spain another week here and there and that's about it apart from your weekends. They are in between work, his and yours. Both of you in your sixties too. In your particular case heading for 62 in a few months.

Whereas, my life is entirely different and very much more comfortable in all ways. I find it ironic in a way that it was you that didn't want to be bored or in a rut, yet that is exactly where you are. Then there's me. The one you thought was a bit boring...I think you mistook intellect for dullness and then took no account of my bereavement. My life as you have seen is the exciting one. I don't work unless I choose to and then only for myself.

I said you make all the wrong decisions ... so did you! I gave you more chances than most would and you turned away from everything you might ever have wanted. Your life reads like a chapter of mistakes and you are living another right now even though you would never admit it.

I am in Boston today and tomorrow. Flew up yesterday as it was my granddaughter's second birthday. The other granddaughter is heading for 4 in December and grandson 2 in January. Great to have family like mine. You missed all the fun!

Then flying into London for a couple of days before heading to Singapore and eventually Oz. As I said fun and vacations interspersed with a little work.

I remain surprised by your choice - fat, cigar smoking, still working - you too, still working, that is and perhaps a little too chubby. Both heading for 62. How long are our lives? None of us know, but I guess you settled, or most likely find yourself 'trapped', where you are, rather like your previous relationships. You made a decision in 2005 that I know you regret, but have come to accept as the only compromise open to a woman of your age.

I know, because ten years ago there were some pretty desperate ladies of similar age and on their own, out there, wanting to hook up with me. I felt sorry for them, but my wishes and desires lay elsewhere and with women younger than me - not older.

So back to that decision of yours. I know you regretted it then and I am certain you still regret it now. Eating out and in, soccer and a fat partner were not what you sought. Nothing much has changed in your life has it. I am sure where you are is 'comfortable', but you are in a rut, well and truly. Posting photos of food and meals out, is a sad attempt to impress, but fails miserably. Yes, I flaunt my lifestyle just for you, to show you what a fool you were and what you passed on.

I recall that you tried to impress before, with talk of a journalist, a company director. To be frank, company directors are two a penny and, in your particular case, he will never be a journalist in a thousand years. He just doesn't have sufficient command of the English language or a decent style of prose and his grammar is very poor. Yours is better! As to book writing, what a poor attempt - I'm surprised it was published at all. I'm on number 13 and could live from that source of income alone, if I ever had to - although I will never need to of course.

You will read this and say... 'same old', but there is a reason that I write it and you know what that reason is .... if you don't ask me!

Time for a few revelations, but you'll have to wait for my next blog..... Just think - disinformation - in the meantime.

I will leave you with a few photos of my home area, just to remind you of.......the Good Life!

This is just one of Sanford Mall in Seminole County, Florida where we spent a great weekend

Ciao