Reflecting

LL

As I sit here in Massachusetts  looking out at the sea, I am reflecting on what I now see as the initial 'rush' of your meeting the man you are still with. As I recall you were going to have a place abroad and by now be living together. Neither have happened, have they, and time marches on - twelve years in fact.

I am heading over there to London soon in our own plane, something you never dreamed of when you knew me. As I am sure you have worked out by now, there was much more to me than you ever imagined. Then a brief visit to the very east of Europe before returning back here.

My blogs - these, and the other sort - are produced to let you know that you were such a small town person in your outlook and in perception. You had no idea of my life, none whatsoever. Yet you decided to wander off merely to satisfy your 'needs'. When I said long ago that I wasn't going anywhere, I meant it 100%. However, what you did changed all that and for a short while, a very short while you broke my heart.

In the end, you are the loser. You lost me - no big deal you might say - you lost a wonderful life, you lost twelve years of your life working when you would never have had to with me, and dare I say you lost all those years sharing a bed with me...and I know how much you enjoyed my attentions in that department. Those skills didn't go to waste as you now know. In fact they are still employed regularly.

Next year is a milestone birthday for me and I'm still fit and 'performing'. I hope that is the case for your partner. I dare not imagine what it looks like when you two get together, given his size!

You know what you have missed...apart from the houses, cars, travel and the plane. I don't need to keep repeating it, but I do feel reiterating it from time to time serves as a reminder of all the wrong decisions you made...you admitted to them back in 2006.

I have a superb life, mainly through my own efforts and shrewd decisions. You could say, the opposite to yours and your decisions, but when you look back on your life you will have regrets. Me, I don't think I have any..I have been, as you once said, a lucky, lucky man. Although, to be fair, I made most of that luck.

In many ways I feel sorry for you. You wanted to remain friends. That surprised me at the time. I thought how could a woman who had acted unfaithfully on a number of occasions, think that a man, any man, would want to stay her friend. Funny sort of standards that you work by LL.  Imagine if it had been the other way round - what would you done, remained friends? I think not.

You had, and have, very confused thinking and very odd moral standards.

Never mind. Think of us enjoying our life over here and in Europe and the rest of the World...living a life of luxury. That might stay in your mind for a while.

Ciao

Windy Days and Rainy Days

A brief update for you LL.


Windy Days

You said in the past I am lucky, and I said you make your own luck.. It seems you were partially correct as Hurricane Irma has spared our home in Naples, Florida with, I understand minimal damage. Likewise, the same for our home in West Palm Beach. We have a whole office of guys and girls to sort out insurance etc and staff on the spot. At the end of the day they are just other homes.

I guess the other piece of 'luck' is our spending some time, as we are now, on the West Coast. It has been real hot here in Oregon and is set to hit 89F (32C) today.You once laughingly talked of the 'the bleak north'. I think you were right. No wonder you try and escape to Spain when you can.

Mind you we have some forest fires to the east of here at Eagle Creek with over 3,000 acres on fire.

Talking of travel, we will be over in Europe toward the end of the month. In London briefly, then flying to a country to the south east of Poland for a brief visit of a few days - you can figure where LL or maybe I will tell you later in the month. Then it's back to the USA, before heading to Australia for our usual month of summer down under. Not a bad life is it lady, shame you didn't see fit to share it, but then I don't think you could have kept up, or fitted in with my friends and associates.


Rainy Days

Seems you have had plenty of rain there, not least while you were walking. The distance you covered was pretty minimal. Both of you must be far from fit. I walk six times that distance without noticing it and regularly do 10 miles...and I'm 6 years older than both of you!

If it's of interest all my folks over here in the US are safe and sound. Jon was the last out of Florida and he's with the rest of our families in New England.

Ciao Bella😊