For LL
Spending time relaxing in The Bahamas, leaves me a little time to ruminate on a past 'love' - you LL. Likewise, you have also relaxing recently, but in an entirely different way.
There is little to inspire in your social media posts. I have to ask myself, why photos of food, drink, airports and a fat man. What sort of life do you lead these days? It seems, in part, it is one of food and yet more food, drink and yet more drink. Fact is ma'am you are not the woman you once were. You have really let yourself go....to pot!
Then there's your idea of fashion, although I will acknowledge that is partly governed by your size and the availability of items within your budget. At nearly sixty four you have little opportunity to put things right. That guy you are with is even less healthy and I don't see him making 'old bones'.
Compare that with what you might have enjoyed, had you not erred. I have just come back from The Bahamas in my own plane. Shortly, I will be in London on some business and a little pleasure. Before that we were in West Palm Beach, San Diego, Oahu and of course Australia...and that's since October last!
I have spent Christmas in our home in West Palm Beach, all 5 bedrooms of it, each with a bathroom, to return to our luxurious winter home here in Florida (9 Bedrooms). I have and can have any car I desire and clothes are no problem at all for me or Ash. Even if I had never re-married after my late wife's death, I would still be enjoying most of what I have.
By way of an example of the life I lead, here's short video of us on the town in New York City, just before Christmas week. (I don't state everywhere I go).
Since I moved on from you LL. I have travelled the World. First of all on my own, which was fun and brought with it many 'benefits'. Then later and now, with my wife Ash. Prior to all that, and prior to you, I had been to quite a few places with the Navy, but they were hardly holidays!
In many ways, and on reflection during this rumination, I really don't think you would have enjoyed my life, you felt awkward about your own lack of experience when you knew me...in
many respects, I might add...and I am sure that you would never appreciate what I do in life. You didn't have a clue really, when I think about it.
There you are having taken another holiday in the same old place(s), never trying anything new, never going to all those many places even around Europe that are great. If it's not you then it's him and to think you wanted to 'live' and not be bored. I can tell you one thing, I would be very bored with the same vacation places, the same weekends and all that soccer. It would drive me mad.
You made the mistake of your life when we parted, and I know that you realise it....way too late. You had your good points, but you had/have quite a few bad ones - selfishness, morals that are highly suspect and, I suppose, I could add theft to that list too.
Best decision I ever made was to move on from you. There were far too many negatives in your make up and actions.
By the way, here's that guy I mentioned looked like a Crocodile Dundee type. Taken in the rain-forest somewhere in Queensland, Australia about seven weeks ago. He still looks fit despite the years having marched on.
On to other things. This year we are taking a trip around India (we have lots of friends there - business ones and personal) in addition to our usual stays in Europe and Australia...and here in the States. Stopping off in the Far East too. I get around don't I, LL.
You would NEVER have been bored, but you were very short-sighted. A loss like that I would find hard to swallow, but I guess you have a mechanism with coping with loss on that scale - putting it out of your mind, perhaps. That latter point is why I write, so it
is in your mind.
I'll sign off for now, I have a book to finish writing among other things.
Ciao
