April 2019

For LL in the UK

As it has been sometime since I gave you an update LL, I thought about now would be an opportune moment as I am within a week of flying over to Italy.

If you have been keeping an eye on me you will know that I am in New Hampshire with the occasional trip to Nantucket Island and Boston. The latter two being over the State border in Massachusetts of course.

I have been entertaining a series of guests here at the ranch - when aren't I ask myself. One has just returned to the UK. That lady was the one I first met in Bristol, UK way back in 2004. Life goes around in circles sometime. Later today I am expecting an American guest for the weekend. Should be fun if you follow the meaning of fun.

Life isn't that different in the small details but the bigger picture is far different to when you knew me. Wealth has distinct advantages over the opposite. One appreciates it more when you have worked hard for it, which I have plus a big dose of acumen.

I have a new crop of foals from various mares and some well bred sires that have kept me and my staff busy. Not so busy that I haven't had time for a little play. Beyond the bedroom that is. I ride out over my acreage regularly, a little shooting some at a local range. You have to get re-certificated.

I've changed a couple of the Grand Cherokees and a Ford on the ranch, plus I bought a nice Lincoln Hybrid for use around here. I seem to be changing cars in various locations quite regularly! Here, Florida, LA, Europe and the UK. With regard to the latter, I can't wait to get over and try the new Aston Martin that has just been delivered.

On top (now there's a thought) of the usual stuff here, I have been writing. I love it of course. Nearly finished book twenty one. When I think of your man's two book attempt it rather says it all about how poor your decision making was, doesn't it. Mine sell extremely well too.

Before being here n New England, I was in Florida for the winter of course and also over in California finalizing the sale of San Diego and closing on the LA property that I now use as home on the West Coast.

Beyond that I will over in Milan at the back end of next week then onto Switzerland and then to London.

All a long, long way from when I knew you...or you knew me LL. What a fool you were, but on the other hand I was undoubtedly the 'winner', so I have no regrets at orchestrating your departure. when I look at you know with that stupid grin on your face I wonder why I ever bothered in the first place. I certainly wouldn't bother now. Then again you would probably still be slim if you had stayed. Of course that is why I made sure you went because I couldn't trust you.

All a load of water (or some other less savoury substance) under the bridge now.

I didn't need the 'revenge' you spoke of. I knew that knowledge of my good fortune would be enough to make you 'sick'.

So, here I am far from you across the 'Pond' waiting for a beautiful woman to arrive. Surrounded by fantastic country side my two dogs, Ben and Prince and living a life you can only dream of. Life is for living LL. You can't get it back and you passed on the best opportunity you ever had in life. No wonder I think of you as an utter fool.

As they say though ...c'est la vie

Ciao

Dear Mary

For LL in the UK

I guess I could write a letter to 'Dear Mary' avoiding the more obvious name, but I won't. I will just write below.

No doubt you have had reason, over the years and shortly after we parted, to ponder why we didn't stay friends. I thought it would have been obvious to you. You even said 'we can still be friends'. As the obvious didn't occur to you at the time, I will spell it out for you.

If we had just parted and there had been none of your going behind my back with other men, then yes, it would have been good to stay friends. But you broke my trust and went with other men, while you were still with me. That quite simply is why we couldn't stay friends. I don't think your moral compass is that good or, indeed, reliable.

I still, to this day, recall what you said shortly after we parted. It was along the lines of, why did you always make the wrong decisions. Well, you sure did, didn't you! Despite all your rather shallow comments about your life on social media, I am guessing it isn't what you really wanted out of life. It was more a case of having to settle for what you chose. Another wrong decision, as you said, back then.

I'm told, and have seen, the weight you have put on since I knew you. Sad, considering the care you took to keep trim. No doubt that is down to the influence and habits of your man, who is a joke physically.

Then there is your life. One of perpetual weekdays and similar weekends spent north of where you are normally. Vacations? Largely repetitive, visiting the same old places. Where is your spirit of adventure?

Through your actions you sacrificed a life so far removed from the one you now enjoy(?), that there is no comparison.

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I'm now at my home near Concord NH. I often refer to it as the ranch, but the ranch is actually some distance from the house.

I guess you have no real idea of the life you missed out on. This place is large and I mean large. I don't rattle around in it that much as I either have family here, friends or....a friend....or two. My helicopter is based nearby, so I can be off anywhere within reasonable distance. including my place on Nantucket.

I wrote the above the other day and am now on Nantucket island where I am spending the weekend with a lovely female friend. We won't do too much, just relax potter around the town, cook dinner together and generally chill.

Incidentally, book #21 is on the stocks. I'm working it now. Another thriller.

Your guy's attempts were pretty poor - poor English and poor grammar and that is just for starters. I bet you would rather be over here than enduring weekends of being a soccer 'widow'. Not the 'life' you envisaged for yourself is it. But, as they say, you make your bed and you have to lie in it. You needn't have but that was down to you, your behaviour and poor judgment.

Ciao