Intentions and Actions

I was amused by your message, for want of a better word, about intending to live life in an exciting way. There's a big difference between 'intending' and actually 'doing'....and you have missed 10 years or so of the latter.

I was always 'too big' for you in more ways than one, I guess. Certainly too big in the wealth area. I always felt you were a little intimidated by that aspect of my life....if not by others. It showed despite your outward bravado. You were always more than a little insecure and probably still are. That would have ended but you were too afraid/distracted by other men to take that step.

Looking at your last weekend and not least your whole life, it all seems very mundane in comparison with the life of that 'boring' man you sort of discarded. That was a big mistake wasn't it. He loved you and truth be known he still does. What a waste on your part.

I have just gotten in from Oslo to our apartment here in Paris. Glad to leave the snow behind. Our friends in Boston have it quite badly, right now.

I told you I would flaunt a bit, but what's the point. You already know that we are very wealthy with all the usual accoutrements to make life easy and easier and of course more pleasurable.

You were invited to establish communications - nobody will tell the authority you invoked or indeed you know who. Yet again, of course, you have not proved brave enough to do so. I imagine you are well established where you are in life, but I can't imagine it was what you wanted or dreamed of.....least of all, all the soccer and that large personage!

We are out to dinner tonight here in Paris...how romantic. Tomorrow back to the UK and home to Florida on Monday. What is your weekend shaping up to be? Another drive north, more soccer, more eating?

Take care you 'silly billy' you life could once have been 'perfick', but you chose otherwise....foolishly.

Ciao