Crazy and Negative?

LL in the UK

I remember you once saying in and around 2006 that you and some of your friends  thought I was crazy, in my response to your actions. I have no doubt that by now you realise that I was very cool, calm and collected...and had calculated the action I took. The latter includes right up to your complaint to some authorities.

As you will have surmised, probably long ago, I was far from crazy. You had crossed someone unlike any other in your life and I thought I would teach you what, in my book, was a mild lesson. You are lucky I didn't progress beyond 'mild'.

In one respect you may be right in that we are all a little crazy. You, LL, certainly are. Take the decision you made to stay with flour man. That was crazy. Crossing me, that was crazy.Hanging onto the baubles, that was crazy..as you will find out in due course. In fact from my knowledge of your life most of it has been crazy.

As to your friends thinking I was crazy, consider this. From your viewpoint they only had your side of the 'story', yours, but having a good friend in one of your pals enabled me to balance the equation by giving them my side of things. None have let onto you, I'm sure, and I am still in touch with two of them, which is more than I am with you...thank goodness.  You must have taken me for a fool, but as you have found out, I was anything but. That includes noting your friends names, gleaning their email addresses from your computer etc etc. None of which was difficult. In reality they don't think a lot of you or your choices.

 You see I knew a lot and had a grip on a lot more than you ever realised LL. To put it bluntly, you were dealing with someone way out of your league.

Then there's a remark I spotted from you about negative people being miserable people. If it was aimed at me, perhaps among others', then it was way wide of the mark. I have never in my entire life been negative in my outlook nor rarely in my approach to life's tasks and choices. Miserable? I was lonely for a short while before I met you but not miserable. In fact I can't recall a time when I was miserable. However, I think you can in respect of yourself.

Funny you should post that remark as I actually see you as the negative one. Negative choices, negative decisions and a negative life, by and large. Not too much in it to shout about is there. I can think of the problems you had with your children, grandchild, two husbands and after that the choices of partners. Between flour man and me, you chose the lowest common denominator...another negative decision.

You may wonder why I express these opinions, facts and reflections on you and about you.Mainly it is because you were and probably still are a fool, trapped by your own ill thought out decisions. My purpose in writing pieces such as this and also the my 'other' blogs is to ensure you are constantly reminded of the fact that you made some very foolish mistakes. Not just with your decision to leave me, although that was probably the biggest mistake you will ever make, but also those in your past and indeed in the present.

I once told you what many women like to hear - that I wouldn't leave you and that I wasn't going anywhere else. When I told you that I meant it 100%. However, it was contingent on you making the same commitment...but you couldn't and you strayed. Now you are where you are and I am where I am. I know which I prefer and I believe in your heart of hearts you would prefer to be here too, both materially and spiritually.

Decisions LL, our lives are made up of a myriad of them. The trick is making the right ones like me, rather than the wrong ones, like you have.

I will be returning home to my ranch in New England in a couple of days after over two months in the Med, in Skyros, Italy and France. I have had another great time as I always do at this time of the year - great food, great locations and great women. What was it they used to say? Living the life of Riley.

I suspect, and indeed I know, that yours is far more mundane...but it never had to be that way. It all came down to decisions..........yours, never mine. I had made my decision, you just never joined me in that decision.


PS Hope you like my grandchildren. I have been gradually featuring them on my profile picture. Four down three to go.