Opportunity

LL in the UK

Opportunity knocks LL and it knocked for you in a big way, but it doesn't wait until you have sorted your life out.

To use another saying, 'life is too short' ... to waste on someone who was so risk averse that she couldn't take a step that would have changed her life, enormously. I trusted you 100%, but you let me down big time. If you had placed your trust in me and taken that step, that opportunity held out to you, what a life you would have now. I believe because you knew how you were, how your previous husbands were, you believed all men were similar. They are not. You have probably realized that by now - too late.

That was your biggest mistake, and perhaps the biggest mistake of your accident prone life. I am sure you know that most of it is your own doing. Finding the right partner makes all the difference in the world. I know, I found two great women who became part of my life and I was devoted to both of them and they to me. Maybe I'm the better judge of people - in fact I know I am. I just made one mistake...you.

Opportunity is something you have to grab with both hands when it arises. Not prevaricate, as you did. To use another saying - prevarication is the thief of time. You have lost a time that I know you would have revelled in. Choosing a different fork in life, you have consigned yourself to a much more mundane and repetitive life. You may think it is the best now, but in your heart of hearts you know you made the wrong choice.

That is you. One who doesn't see or perhaps doesn't take an opportunity for what it is. Too many doubts probably, based on your past experience and insecurities.

Then there is me. I'm an altogether different person to any you met in the past, or indeed the present. Yes, I like women but once I have the right partner I am 100% loyal and committed - unlike you. As you have no doubt figured, I enjoy a great life style with many friends. I also have a great family and second family, through my last marriage and my own children - seven grandchildren in all. Ages range from just over a year to fifteen. Quite a spread but most of them are under seven and a joy to me.

I 'get around', as you know from my other blogs, but there are two or three women that I hold close and they me. Although I lost Ash, sadly, I am not without love and affection. In fact I am pulled every which way sometimes by those core three. I forgot about the vicar back in the UK. She is still 'with me' in a manner of speaking, so maybe that should be four. She's just coming up to forty four now - maybe I will give her a 'birthday present', one I know she will enjoy!

Unlike you LL, I am a risk taker, or rather I have been. Less so now as I don't need to. I grasp opportunities, but I guess that I recognize the good ones far better than you. All down to sound judgment, I suppose. I haven't made a wrong step so far apart from you and you weren't 'an opportunity', you were more someone who came along when I was in turmoil after losing my first wife. I should have realized what kind of woman you were, but I wasn't myself back then.

Unlike you, I have always landed on my feet even when you went behind my back and you lost my trust completely. I am not and wasn't then, one to stand still. I went out and grabbed opportunities as they presented themselves, whether it was business...or women. It's a reflection on you that I haven't met one woman since your time that has let me down, where that would have been relevant.

Opportunity knocked for you but you missed it and the chance for a whole different life with someone who was very fond of you. I might have said loved once, but that went out the window after March 2004.

This blog is just another reminder of what you did and what you lost. You didn't even have the courage to face me and tell me. That told me an awful lot about you. Sad though it was in a way, I found  a whole different life after we parted (and a bit of fun before!) and I have had a great time - still am.


You like the Eagles, I understand LL. I am sure you know their song 'Lyin' Eyes'. Need I say more ...


Finally, and with apologies to The Beatles....

Ciao