Observations

For LL in the UK

Audentes Fortuna Juvat

Cannes is lovely at this time of the year LL. I am sure you would adore it, but you would probably need a fashion makeover.

I have some spare moments, not many, but a gap in my engagements here and 'around'. As I have I thought I would record a few observations. 

As you know I was married for thirty three very happy years to my late first wife. Sadly, an equally if different marriage to Ash my second wife ended a little under a year ago due to her passing away. I count myself very blessed to have had two such wonderful women in my life. Perhaps it was down to choices or maybe fate.

In reflecting on my good fortune and my choices, I thought about how you life unfolded as you told it to me. You made choices in marrying your men, but it is obvious that your decision making and judgement is flawed. Your first was a disaster and then in time so was your second choice. Skipping me, to whom you were never committed, you moved onto what can only be described as a physical disaster. When you told me he was a 'journalist' and an 'indispensable' company director, that was more about justifying your decision to yourself than trying to impress me.

If it was the latter, then you failed miserably rather like most of your life. Company directors and directorships are two a penny, LL. In no way is he a journalist and neither is he a competent author. I have read extracts of his books - I had no interest in the subject matter - and his English is shot full of grammatical errors and poor sentence construction.

But these observations are not about him, they are about you. In a nutshell I guess it boils down to the fact that you make and made poor decisions. I will always remember your remark after your actions messed 'us' up. "Why do I always make the wrong decisions P?" That has stuck in my mind ever since.

Of course you made it after the event, so to speak, and your actions couldn't be undone. Even then I was prepared to give you the benefit of the doubt and also not to leave you high and dry as you supposed I might. Even then it was apparent to me that you hadn't met many men who said what they meant and did what they said. I am one of those, but because you are who you are, at heart an insecure woman, you couldn't recognize it.

By dint of your own inaction at that time, your lack of courage and lack of commitment, you missed out big time. To think that some thirteen years have elapsed this very month since then. I have an inkling as to what your life has been like. I still am in contact with two of your friends, both ladies. It doesn't compare with what you might have enjoyed in any way, shape or form.

Happy thirteenth anniversary!! I'm happy very happy, I'm not so sure about you and the rut of a lifestyle that you lead though. As they say here in Cannes ....C'est la vie!