Banishing Ghosts from the Past

Like the men before me, I suspect you have tried to banish me from your mind, but I don't think you can. That is partly evidenced by your posts. There are 'ghosts' in your past and I think they play a part in your mind in those quiet moments, however hard you try to exorcise them

Then there is the fact that you know you made completely and utterly the wrong decision. You wouldn't be human if you didn't think about 'what if'.

I wanted you to commit on merit, not commit based on wealth or my probable lifestyle. You couldn't do that, partly because you couldn't stay away from other men. Obviously, I learned this a little later than your actual involvement with them. I gave you two chances after October 2005. I wasn't going to give you a third chance.

I guess you couldn't leave him, even though you had spent over two years with me and substantially less with him, because you weren't about to move far and he was a lot nearer than me. Fear, I think played it's part. Not of me, but of him and what his reaction might have been. In the end you did commit, but to the wrong guy. You know that and I know that. The 'high and dry' would never have happened, even though you thought it might. I wasn't and am not that kind of guy.

Room Service Hollywood Style

Here I am driving around in an Aston Martin  in San Diego a couple of days ago and then there's your life.... I think you cannot quite believe you have gotten things so wrong...but you do have a track record in that respect....don't you!

Over the weekend I took a jaunt to an old haunt here in California...bit of rhyming going on there...or is it rhythm. So below are a few photos that probably won't give you any idea where it was. Let's just say it was along an Interstate. As you know it never rains in California  so have had quite a good weekend. Back East now and Europe appears on the horizon come April/May.

Beach at San Diego

Still some snow on the mountains

Walked this 20 years ago

How are things over there? I see 'his highness' had headed east to see the Hun. More seriously. I am always here if at any time in the future you may need some kind of support. You only have to ask LOL...but of course, you won't.

I guess by now, some ten plus years later, that I was quite a busy man after I found out about your activities. You may have thought that you passed up on me, which in a manner of speaking you did. But I was never going to be slow off the mark, as evidenced by the blogs you may have read. This link will take you into them.

In a way I was overwhelmed. Not by you leaving, but by the female opportunities out there. From early on until very late 2006, I enjoyed one of the most pleasurable times of my life and I was able to travel, unencumbered by the demands of any one but my adult children.

There are many things I love in life but travel and women topped my list and I got plenty of both back then. I recall you saying there are plenty of women out there wanting to get laid. For once you were right, but....I already knew that.

As to travel. I really did do a lot of that as you have read in the past. I'm still doing it as evidenced by this image. If you can't read the second one it says Bilinga, QLD where we stopped for gas once, last year.

I'll leave you with this to view and wonder about. It is someone I live with every day :-)

Ciao